Sunday, March 31, 2013

bye march.

thanks march, for all the lessons that you have thought me.
thanks march, for opening my eyes to realize that there's people who worth and not worth fighting for.
thanks march, for letting me know that some people will remain who they are and some people are just not meant to be. 
thanks march, for all the tears that will strengthen me.

and i believe, tomorrow is going to be a better day than today. see you next year, little march.

Thursday, March 28, 2013

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Last September






















Those pictures were taken when i went to Nansha, China.
It was 2 days one night study trip and the food was incredibly delicious.
and i hate to realise that i was much slimmer back then, so... diet starts today! :D

Sunday, March 24, 2013

Fall from expectations.

Sometimes, all i need is only one person who is willing to listen to me patiently after one long hectic day.
These past two days were the most frantic days and the longest day i have ever had in my life. I had meeting with my cabinets, physics and computer course mid term exams, and the student ambassador's training and workshop scheme. It seems like everything comes at once. I only slept 4-5 hours per day and I feel so sick. I got sore throat and I am not feeling good at all. I was so tired and sleepy and angry at one time.
I know i have always complained every time. I know that i have always be a crying baby, who doesn't willing to step out from her comfort zone. But that doesn't mean that you saying life's always sucks so I have to suck it up justifies my anything.

What hurts more is when you actually didn't care at all. at all.

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Paper Boat.


Yesterday i watched this movie on the Indonesian Movie night event and I love the movie! It has been a long time since i watched Indonesian movie. I think the last time i watched indonesian movie in cinema was like 5 or 6 years ago? I have known this movie since it is based on a best-selling novel. I didn't expect so much since i just wanted to have fun joining the event. But, Undoubtedly, Perahu Kertas has won my heart! 

Will watch the part 2 after mid terms! :D

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Extrano mi hogar

and I couldn't be more relieved when i heard mom said grandma is fine now. My mom sent me a picture of my grandma in the hospital and I'm really relieved. Compared to last few weeks, My grandma looks better and I could see she is recovering. :) .

Thanks god for all your blessings. 

Saturday, March 16, 2013

Broken.

11 pm and i'm still in the middle of the annual general meeting of the University Choir society.
After a full day training to be the Student Ambassador for engineering department, all i want to do now is laying on my bed. BUT, I am still attending this meeting. ARGH ARGH ARGH.

What actually makes me stay in this meeting ( although i don't understand every single word they are saying,They are speaking CANTONESE even though they know i'm international student !!!!!) is because I'm the elected general secretary for the next session. yeah, i guess i'm too naive and too stupid to nominate myself in that position. I joined Choir last semester, and when i heard they were going to recruit a new Executive Committees, i just nominated myself without doubt. 

and i kinda regret it now. 

I actually love being part of  organizations. I first expected that throughout this , i could gain a fruitful and meaningful experience. I can enhance my communication skills, improve my leadership skills, and most importantly, I can know more about local people here and try to mix with them. 
But after being a part of the University Choir, I realize that language is still the biggest problem. Often, in the middle of the internal meeting with my cabinet, my partners communicate in Cantonese. I can't blame on them, cause i know it must be not easy for someone to speak another language when they can actually speak their own mother-tongue. But what i didn't expect is that during the annual general meeting, this meeting is basically attended by the previous previous ex-cos who will do the evaluation for the current cabinet and the next cabinet, everyone speaks cantonese. and my presence is needed in order to prove my commitment to the society. 

and i was like... whatttttttt??????

Thursday, March 14, 2013

too young to realize

Cause i'm worried sick right now. Everything seems to happen in wrong time.

I need my time to refresh my mind. I want to run as far as i can. i don't want to face the reality. I don't want to hear pain and I don't want to see sacrifices.




Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Spring

So hello people, how are you? nei ho?

So here i am, back in Hong Kong. and i know i look so pathetic as i typed that phrase. It's not that i dislike living here, but it's more like i miss home. who doesn't miss home right? Okay, i keep nagging about how homesick i am in every single of my post. i'm gonna skip on that.

My life here has been so buzzzzzzzyyyy. fyi, i skipped one week of school since i wanted to celebrate chinese new year with my family. When i arrived here, i was too occupied with assignments and projects. After few weeks, well actually one month after i arrived back in here, i am busy preparing for mid terms. time is undoubtedly fast.

This one month has been the toughest month of my life. It's not because of the exams, certainly. I guess I have no choice but motivating myself to get through it. After all, this is UNILIFE.

My grandma had an accident few weeks ago and it scared me so much. so much that i feel uneasy for these past two weeks. Although my grandma is fine now, but still, That scared feeling still haunts me. My grandma has been one of the most important person in my life. Since i was born, My grandma has been taking care of me till now. I'm now seventeen going to eighteen and I have always been a baby when I am with my grandma. When i came home during winter break, My grandma never stopped asking me questions about what do i want to eat today and she always cooked my favorite food every single day. During the winter holiday, my family and I went abroad to celebrate the Chinese New Year.  I got an infection on my leg and I was unable to walk. The Doctor said that i needed to rest and I was not allowed to walk for few days. As i was in holiday, I was quite frustrated. But my grandma always accompanied me in the Hotel/ Apartment while others were going out. When i was a kid, i was a naughty and a troublemaker little girl but my grandma always forgave me and hugged me. and it never stops, till now, my grandma always kisses and hugs me.

So grandma, please get well soon, i know you are strong and i want you to come to visit me here.
God bless you and please get well soon. i miss you so much. i love you.