Sunday, November 27, 2011


somehow it looks very easy for them to achieve. im such a fool.

Sunday, November 20, 2011

out of blue, feeling blue.

i hope i would never regret to every single decision that i have made throughout this 2 years of my juvenile year.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011


can't believe time flies so so so so extremely FAST!!!!! in a blink of eye, i am now officially a third year senior high school student. Life has been so hard recently but thank god i could cope with it. I believe that god is, and will always give the best to me and all i have to do is strive harder and harder. never stop trying, i said that to myself everyday. although i made some fatal mistakes, but isn't experience is our best teacher? so i will just take the lesson from it and continue my perseverance. I have done my best and now i need luck , heaps of luck to get admitted to the university that i have chosen. i will keep my fingercrossed no matter what happened, yeah! positive positive!

and oh yeah, it's less than a week till teacher's day which my sister is going to turn 19 this year. i am thinking about what surprises i should give her as this year her Chinese birthday shares the same date too. okay should look for some surprises via net, bye!

Monday, November 14, 2011

that moment.

It's funny to realise when you couldn't choose any word to say but pictures could. pictures paint a thousand words, don't they?

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

The so called life.

Hi!. i just noticed that i have abandoned this blog for ages. So i decided to post something to my e-diary, the only thing that records my life during the last 2 years.

I don't know how much failures i have made. The same failures that i keep repeating, being the loser i am. I can't even recall when i last could win over something or at least, offered myself a reward. It seems like i have out of the track for a long time, and i didn't make an effort to keep back on my track. I wonder where i was for this past year, what have i achieved actually? and it strikes me directly on a very specific answer: nothing. I don't get good grades, yeah, see my last report card. I don't actually do something, i haven't had the feeling when i was really happy, like i was on top of the world, truly achieved something that i wouldn't disappoint people who have supported from the first place. and now i feel numb. i am broken in despair, or grief to be exact. the dreams that i have collected will be torn into pieces and there's no way i could fix it.

yes, bump my head now. i am more like walking-dead-man.
i can't do nothing but crying in despair. the failures that i have had enough during the last 4 years and now, there are failures waiting for me....... a future that is ruined by myself.....